Very Relieved - But ...

[Aaron]

This weekend was very indifferent for many reasons but today was very very iffy to say the least.

Firstly wish is the reason for this thread.

Obviously alot of you nice folk know myself & my lovely Fiance have a beautiful 4 month old Baby Daughter. Now fo rthe last 2 or so months we have been having unprotective sex, using the withdraw method.

There has been the odd time or two or three that I have indeed felt like planting my seed inside my Fiance to create our 2nd lovely child. But I have done what I have previously promise d & withdrawn at the last moment to deliver my seed in a number of ways which I wont talk about in here.

Well My Lovely fiance has been feeling quite unwell the last week or two. Today we purchased a Pregnancy test kit & much to our relief she is NOT PREGNANT. No way could we afford a 2nd child this soon, We hope to have a 2nd child when our only child Madison goes to Primary School at the age of 5, which is no doubt about 4 years and all that away. By then we should have the funds to talk about a 2nd child.

But deep deep down I was dissapointed, a little part of me wanted a 2nd child. Nothing better than having children.

Anyone else been through this ? Relieved at being Not Pregnant but deep down a little bit of you wanted another child ?

I don't know how to feel right now.

[Luba]

Aaron, I believe it's a sense of loss of what 'might have been' but yet you know in your heart of hearts you and your fiance aren't ready for a second child. I suggest talking it over with your fiance and find out how she feels, too! Talking it out with her might help you a lot, JMHO!

You have a precious child to enjoy now, all the steps she's taking to be her own person! She needs your love and guidance to have a happy childhood.