The one person you'll never forget...

[Ayla]

I know we all have them...that one person whom we will never forget.

I do.

His name is Shawn. He came into my life shortly after I split with my ex-husband. He had only been divorced just a few months. We were both wounded emotionally.

It started out innocently enough. We were both newly single, and both had been in basically loveless marraiges. I can't tell you how many nights the two of us sat out on my back porch looking at the stars. The sky would be like a blanket of velvet and the stars were such bright pinpoints of light. It was just getting to be autumn and in the evenings the air was cool and sharp in my lungs and we'd share a blanket on the swing and just talk.

Then it happened. We were measuring my bathroom because I was going to buy new border to hang. I said something and looked up at him and he had this fire in his eyes that up until that point I had never seen in a man's eyes. He cupped my head in his hands and stroked my face with his thumbs. He leaned down and kissed me. It was the most tender, passionate, and hungry kiss I've ever experienced. It took me completely by surprise. When he pulled away I put my hand to my mouth and couldn't bring myself to look at him. I was overwhelmed. He put his arms around me and pulled me to him. I laid my head on his chest and marveled at the sense of comfort and security I found there.

The next 4 months went very fast. If we weren't at work we were together. When we were physical it was pure magic. Just kissing him was enough to take my breath from my lungs. We went hunting together a lot. Mostly we just liked walking through the fallen leaves hand in hand.

Neither of us acknowleged what we had. We were scared and still scarred from our previous relationship. We never fully gave into what was happening to us. We laughed and called ourselves "friends with benefits." It was so much more than that though and we knew it.

After 4 months or so he had to move over an hour away because of his work. We continued to see each other about once a week, and occasionally spent the weekend together. This continued for about another 6 months. Then I too had to move for work. I moved an hour and a half in the other direction. that put 2 and a half hours between us.

That might as well have been the Atlantic Ocean. We haven't been in each other's presense since then. We talked a few times and just drifted apart.

I am now happily remarried and love my husband more than life itself. I wouldn't trade him for anything, not even Shawn. He's the man I'm going to grow old with and have babies with. He's my life.

Shawn too has married again. He's already started his family with her.

The thing is this, even though it's been nearly 3 years since I saw him last, it's inevitable that I will see him. His uncle married my mom. So we are technically step cousins now. There will be family functions where us meeting face to face again is unavoidable. I don't know what I'll do or say when that day comes but I know all these old emotions will start flooding back in.

I'll always have a part of me that will wonder if we had met at a diffrent time in our lives what would have happened. I'll always carry what we had with me, locked away in a secret box.

Who is the person that you'll never forget?

[Star]

mine is Dave. I was 17 when i met him, he was 20. we were perfect for eachother and so much in love that we were 1 person when we were together.

I broke up with him when i moved back here. we were 8 hours apart and i thought it was unfair for him and i to keep having this relationship going if we lived so far apart. We were togethr for 4 years. It was the hardest thing i ever had to do in my entire life.

I think about him all the time. I wonder what if i didn't break it off with him? what if we stayed together?

He will always hold a special piece of my heart. I love my husband to no end too but at the same time, i long for dave.

Perhaps it's the memories that i long for or still love. i don't know.

hubby and i broke up for a few months 11 years ago. i moved out, took the kids and got my own place. i called dave. he was living in ottawa back then. that's still a good 7 hours drive from where i live. this is when the eagles got back together for the first time in years and they were touring. he got tickets to see the eagles for he and i. he came down here, took a motel room for the weekend and took me to see this concert.

I had such a good time but i was so confused. I had to stop myself from holding him or kissing him because i just felt that it was so natural for me to do that with him. it was strange. especially after not seeing him for a good 10 years or so.

he was the perfect gentleman. after the concert, he dropped me off at home and he went to his motel room. the next day, we went to visit nisagara falls reminissing our times that we had spent there in the past.

he wanted us to get back together again and so did i but i couldn't get hubby out of my mind. here i was with 2 kids and hubby heartbroken because i had left him. i decided to stay with hubby and work on our relationship instead. I haven't seen or talked to dave since. he looked so sad when he left.

I will always love dave, always. he's the one that i let go that i shouldn't of let go. it's a regret tht i have to live with for the rest of my life but on the same note, i wouldn't give gerry up for the world either.

have you seen that movie the notebook? i'm the girl, dave's the guy and hubby is the girl's fiance that she didn't marry. That movie breaks my heart every time i watch it. it hits close to home but i have to watch it every time it's on.

hubby doesn't know about what's hidden away. if he did, he would be so hurt so i will never tell him this. it does feel good to actually tell someone though. thanks for that.

[Ayla]

Originally Posted by Star

hubby doesn't know about what's hidden away. if he did, he would be so hurt so i will never tell him this. it does feel good to actually tell someone though. thanks for that.

I know how you feel. I could never tell my husband this. Ever. He's my best friend but some things are best left unsaid. I felt so much better after I posted about this and after reading your response.

[Star]

it does feel good to actually say (well write) it out loud. i've held this in for almost 12 years now.

I do wonder if dave holds me in a special place in his heart too. i think he does. I saw it in his eyes the last time i saw him 12 years ago.

I know that he did marry, had 2 kids (girls) and got divorced. he was single when he took me to the concert. He's probably remarried and happy. at least that's what i hope for him.

[Adonaicole]

I don't want to sound like a pig, but there are several girls that I will never forget.

Karrie - She was my first real love (you never forget your first love).
Gloria - She was my first real lover (you can never forget that one either).
Monique - She is my one and only true love (so far).
Kelly - She was my first penpal/aerobics instructor/girlfriend (you never forget that combo).
Heidi - The only girlfriend I had that could keep up with me running.
Linda - My baddest girlfriend, but she was very good to me.
Tiffany - My only lesbian gf.
My ex-wife for giving me a beautiful son.
A certain undisclosed girl hiding somewhere in Florida, who always cheers me up when I'm down.

[Merika]

Originally Posted by Adonaicole

A certain undisclosed girl hiding somewhere in Florida, who always cheers me up when I'm down.

We should've made up some hot story. LOL!
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I have a post to add on here but don't have time left this morning to tell it. I'll be back.

[Weiser]

I'm like Adonaicole...

Julie - My first girlfriend, first love
Jaclyn - Love hit me in the face
Fiona - Austrailian, I'll never forget that accent
Julie / Tara - Both were my bosses, both were sleeping with me, both had no idea about eachother. You don't forget that!
Cecile - The most amazingly hot girl I have ever been with. I think I posted a pic here.
Both Saras - Because they both cheated on me. The name now reminds me of cheaters.

Ah that's about it.

[Adonaicole]

Julie / Tara - Both were my bosses, both were sleeping with me, both had no idea about eachother. You don't forget that!

I laughed so hard when I read this. You really like to live dangerously, don't you? When I was younger, I was more of a thrill seeker but I got my thrills through relatively safe sports, like cliff diving, river rafting, mountain climbing. Dating two bosses at the same time...you're lucky to be alive dude!

[darkangelism]

i think weiser is like a sex god, ok wait that sounded gay. i mean he has done stuff that most guys just dream of.

[Weiser]

Here's the way I look at it, if I'm just dating someone, not exclusively, I'm free to anyone. So are they. Once we're exclusive I'm theirs.

There was one time that I was pretty scared though, I was at the bar with one boss and the other showed up. Both were pretty drunk and trying to dance / make out with me at the same time. It popped in my head that maybe they would be cool with it, maybe they would both just come back to my place. Then I realized I was in fantasy land and to get the hell out of there. So what did I do? Faked a cell phone call. "Hello? Yeah I'll be right there." Gold Jerry, Gold!

[darkangelism]

yeah one of my friends is like that, she tries to not be exclusive or have feelings for guys she goes out with so she can always meet new ones.

[Stone]

His name was Jason I was 17 he was 20. not to sound like a snob but I was extreamly popular in high school and he was not so as self centered as I was then, I kept him a secret because he wasn't popular... that makes me sick now

He used to come to my house bring me flowers, and my mother as well and my parents just loved him.. he would follow me around like a puppy dog, he just wanted to be in my presence, i really felt the same way about him, but never showed it. then later I dumped him for a popular boy :? I know if I really gave him a chance he would have made an awasome boyfriend and is actually a great husband and father now, some lucky gal finally got him.

Funny how things change. Now 8 years later EVERYONE thinks he's hot!! go fuigure, that's what I got for being a Snobby b88ch

The other guy is Troy... I'll never forget him because he was great in bed :? :twisted: :twisted:

[darkangelism]

that story doesnt surprise me, at least you grew up and recognize your mistakes.

[Merika]

I was gonna write a little something about the A$$Clown in my life...but the truth is he isn't worth the emotion. Some people you never get over....you just learn to live without them.

Most of the time....I'm the queen of the three dates. After that, I have no idea what happens. I just don't want to be there anymore. Stupidjerk was the exception....but then again....we never lived in the same state or many times were in the country. It was an ideal arrangement for me.