Being happy

twinkle · 11-08-2004, 03:24 PM

My pc is still broken, yet I've survived....

So as right now I'm in the "eternely bliss" period of time with my bf, I find myself looking over my shoulder. It's finally happening, I'm doing great at school, great with my bf, not that great with my money,but hey, I'm still in school.

And as things go so great with my bf - honestely,I cannot ask for more - I feel a bit afraid. Like what's gonna happen wrong, where is it gonna come from... It's weird, but when have problems, I focus on fining solutions and feel more in control. This time I actually can and have the time to do what I wish for. And I'm like watching the skies to see where're the grey ones...

Do you do this? I do have this tendency to think think think...

Stone · 11-08-2004, 03:30 PM

Yes I do this as well, I imagine everything that can possibly go wrong get upset with myself for no reason.... my b/f is usually the victim of this.

Eaternaly bliss is great enjoy it when it is here, you never know how long it lasts. thinking is good then if anything happens your already prepared for it :wink:

Duke · 11-08-2004, 06:12 PM

I've been in a relationship that actually broke up because it was too good to be true. She was always waiting for the rug to be pulled from under her feet. What she didn't realize was that living the good life always expecting the bad will ruin a relationship.

twinkle · 11-08-2004, 06:53 PM

Ha, ha, ha -that's exactly what I fear most! That I'll do something relly stupid that will scare him off!

It's my second year in a foreign country and itwas just so hard for me last year, everything was so confusing, like I could never be in control. I think the even scarier thing is that I think I get used to it, to a system that's not mine in a language that's not my own...weird... I like alwaysvexpect to discover something I forgot, didn't understand or misplaced(I do that at times). And my bf was age of as the one helping me get better..Now I'm fine, I don't seem to be in need of help, I'm quite fine, actually doing great with school... so I automatically think that "something bad is gonna happen some other place"!

Like a law of equilibrium,or something... I'm not used. I'm not used to being treated with kindness, not being taken advantage of, being age of as safe...being happy,I guess.

I run and run and do things...I call it "make a career", sacrifice for the future, the truth is that I simply am scared to stop, beside the reasons I gave you. I won't stop anyday soon for the next 2 years... I don't want to end up alone either.

I guess I just need a week end by myself... to read, bathe and pamper... not think, just relax and enjoy. I don't actually see myself doing this,to tell you the truth

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What do you guys do when you're worked up and restless?

Duke · 11-08-2004, 07:57 PM

I'll usually hop on my mountain bike and get as muddy as possible. That seems to be the most relief I can get and it clears my mind at the same time.

Stone · 11-08-2004, 08:09 PM

I take long drives or if I have the money I'll get my hair done do my nails and buy new clothes.

Duke · 11-08-2004, 10:37 PM

Taking long drives is a good idea too.

Merika · 11-08-2004, 10:42 PM

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Originally Posted by twinkle

What do you guys do when you're worked up and restless?

Hey Twinkle....It's SOO good to see you posting. I hope you get your pc fixed soon!!! :slick:

twinkle · 11-09-2004, 12:15 AM

What_on_Earth_are_you_talking_about????? :mycomputer:

Duke · 11-09-2004, 08:48 AM

Didn't you say you were having PC problems?

Merika · 11-09-2004, 09:18 AM

Yes....even with high speed cable connections....I still find it frustrating! LOL!

Twinkle....I don't know if I would worry about doing something really stupid to scare him off. I think the test of love is being able to do something really stupid and the other person forgives you and loves you anyway. Within reason though.....you can't run off with a flock of sailors or anything for the weekend. THAT may upset him beyond repair....haha!

Duke · 11-09-2004, 10:18 AM

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Originally Posted by Merika

Yes....even with high speed cable connections....I still find it frustrating! LOL!

Sorry, yet another example of a Merika post that went wizzing over my head :?

Merika · 11-09-2004, 11:29 AM

Well.....if it's

and works better with a high speed connection....maybe one sad lonely night...you'll figure it out. :wink:

Duke · 11-09-2004, 11:49 AM

Allright, you were talking about something else, I got it now. Some type of streaming media perhaps (no pun intended).

twinkle · 11-09-2004, 03:10 PM

Love you, guys!!!!

My "space" tab doesn't work so I have to copy it after every word...I'm an expert now.

My laptop still is under waranty, but I have lots of papers to turn in for school,so I'll get it fixed in two other weeks.

Situation under control, I discovered my visa is about to expire, so I have my hands full, again.....

wooow, I'm so excited(me puking).... another week of fighting the French administration, paper works up and down... Now it feels like my usual life, hahahaha!

Naaah, I'll get it fixed next week. My bf takes me to ballet (Sleeping Beauty at Opera Garnier)... ain't he amazing?

Merika... I guess I'll postpone my adventure with a ship loaded with sailors this time.... LOOOOOOL

Thank you