What do i do? - Page 3

Luba · 03-01-2008, 05:11 PM

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Originally Posted by kathy

Don't worry Luba i have got one, if things do get very very extreme, but the way things are moving at the moment im sure i won't have to use it. (fingers crossed)

Me, too! I'm crossing my fingers and saying prayers for all three of you!

kathy · 03-01-2008, 05:16 PM

Thankyou, i just want to cry in complete joy

(in a happy way, not sad)

Luba · 03-01-2008, 05:21 PM

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Originally Posted by kathy

Thankyou, i just want to cry in complete joy

(in a happy way, not sad)

I'm glad, Kathy, So glad! I hope it keeps on keepin' on!

Duke · 03-01-2008, 09:30 PM

Grouphug

kathy · 03-01-2008, 10:32 PM

awwww grouphug

thankyou for making me so welcome here.

Luba · 03-01-2008, 11:03 PM

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Originally Posted by kathy

awwww grouphug

thankyou for making me so welcome here.

Easy to do!

NoTargeT · 03-02-2008, 09:01 AM

I think you did very well in this situation Kathy, you should be proud of yourself!

Duke · 03-02-2008, 01:51 PM

We are

kathy · 03-02-2008, 03:10 PM

Thankyou, you guys gave me alot of support which i needed to help me which i am so gratefull for.

Though things are doing great at the moment, i feel like im back at stage one again. I found some letters than my husband has been writing, that which is conserning me, i haven't asked him about them yet, im not sure if i should or not i don't want to upset him or overwhelm him. I am going to talk about them in the next session but im not sure if i should confront him with them or just leave it and let him think i have no idea about them.

Duke · 03-02-2008, 03:24 PM

This is actually my primary concern given your situation kathy, any emotionally related issue that is controlled by drugs is essentially a powder keg waiting for the right spark.

One of my ex's had a brother who had all kinds of rage related issues and it was imperative for him to take his meds which only served to stifle his energy levels rather than actually help with his anger issues. He'd tire of taking meds, drop them and end up in such rage that it often landed him in jail, at one point he actually put his sisters head through a wall.

I think it's important that you do your best to stand by your husband but it's also imperative that you have a safety net ready to go at a moments notice.

kathy · 03-02-2008, 03:51 PM

Im sorry to hear about that, did you witness any of the rage? I want to help him about this, i am not sure what these letters about, they just make no sense. If you wanted i could write out a little bit of these letters and see what you think and maybe that would help?

Duke · 03-02-2008, 04:05 PM

I never witnessed any of the rage but I will say he was one scary d00d. I'm not afraid of much but his unstable demeanor always kept me on edge and a constant state of readiness should something happen.

I'm more than willing to look at anything you want to share but I'm not a professional so anything I can offer is only opinion based. I would just worry if what your seeing, reading, living with is out of the ordinary and make sure you report all these new issues. My waning faith in the medical field means that I do believe there are possible giant holes missed by professionals when it comes to accurately diagnosing patients based off limited info.

You live with it so there's no one better educated on whats going on and in my minds eye, that makes you the only authority on the matter. I think everyone needs to listen to you but more importantly, you need to listen to yourself as well because if it feels off, chances are it's off.

I'd just really hate to see something happen to you or learn you became a victim; a victim to your own warm heart and need to help.

Does this make sense?

kathy · 03-02-2008, 04:40 PM

It does make sense, professional or not you and the other people on here, are very knowledged people. The advice i have recieved of here was proberley the best advice and support i've got in a long time and it is hard to get good advice and support, and it has helped me so much and i am so grateful for it.

Heres what has been written is some of the letters.

"My darkest hour has reached me, my hands are mirrors i can't stop seeing what i have done, i can't stop hearing what i have done. I look inside you and see my candle which was once glowing now it has burn't out. I get haunting memories of you crying and screaming with lauren grasped in your arms thats all i can remeber. I don't deserve you or lauren anymore, god if you can here me i want out."

All of his letters are like this, i don't know what to think of them. These letters are scaring me so much i really don't know what to do about them.