my self image issues reached a new low

[darkangelism]

Tonight i hung out with my friends for the last time as they are grsduating and i wont see them again. Anyway there was this girl there that i knew, but i had never really talked to her and i found out that she has a disability too i just never noticed it. At that point i waas like hmm, maybe i have a chance with her because she understands me, so over the next few hours we hung out, my hand kept finding its way to her back or her leg, or the thing between her back and her legs and she was fine with it. But when i had the chance to take her home, i didnt, i didnt want her to feel that i felt sorry for her, or the other way around. I wanted a "normal" girl. I feel like i discriminated against her for her disability, even though thats what i feel people do to me.

[Stone]

A disibility doesn't make one less of a person it makes one a stronger person.

I dated a guy in high school with a disibility once, actually he was the sweetest, nicest boyfriend I've ever had. In relationships it isn't supposed to matter what other people think anyway, because adventually if the relationship is taken to a committment level you won't really want other people around as much what really matters is that the couple involved loves and understands eachother, feels comfortable with eachother, respects and loves one another if you can find that in any woman she is a keeper.

Plus I'm glad you didn't take her home, don't be one of those creepy guys who feels like he has to do that and don't attempt it untill atleast date 4

[darkangelism]

Date 4? thats a lot of work,lol, i do plan on having one night stands, just not for the first time, and if i go on a date then i will wait.

[Star]

taking her home on the first night would've been a mistake anyhow DA. Did you get her phone number? sounds like she might of liked you in the way that you're looking for. If you did get her number, you should give her a call sometime and ask her out to dinner or somthing.

[darkangelism]

no i didnt, she left before i had a chance too, had to go home in queens. Also im leaving in a few days and so i cant start anything right now, the timing is wrong, ill probably end up seing her in the fall anyway.