I feel lost - Page 2

Star · 09-03-2007, 10:32 AM

i wish i could take all 3 but i can't. her last one, baily) is with the idiot's mother. krystal can't be around her either without being supervised. brooklynn is still in a foster home. she's in a wonderful home and i see her once a week (every friday). i haven't seen baily since the day she was born.

we are going to go for grand-parents visitation rights at the same time for the other two babies. that's all i can do for the other two. i can't raise all of her kids. we did this with erika in hopes that she would stop doing what she was doing. but, it clearly hasn't done that. erika is almost 3 now and this is the only home she knows. i feel very bad for the other two but i can't take them in. i really can't. if i did that, it would open up a door to a whole new set of problems on top of the things we're being put through now.

sad to say but the other two would be much better off being placed for adoption.

TKDLady · 09-03-2007, 10:38 AM

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Originally Posted by Star

i wish i could take all 3 but i can't. her last one, baily) is with the idiot's mother. krystal can't be around her either without being supervised. brooklynn is still in a foster home. she's in a wonderful home and i see her once a week (every friday). i haven't seen baily since the day she was born.

we are going to go for grand-parents visitation rights at the same time for the other two babies. that's all i can do for the other two. i can't raise all of her kids. we did this with erika in hopes that she would stop doing what she was doing. but, it clearly hasn't done that. erika is almost 3 now and this is the only home she knows. i feel very bad for the other two but i can't take them in. i really can't. if i did that, it would open up a door to a whole new set of problems on top of the things we're being put through now.

sad to say but the other two would be much better off being placed for adoption.

I understand. I would find raising my kids' kids very hard as well. I am glad you get to see Booklynn but am sorry about the baby. I hope you are able to get the grandparent visitation you want. Is the idiot's mother as bad as the idiot? Is she stopping you from seeing Baily? I will be praying for you and for you to have the strength you need to get through all this. You definitely have my respect. I think you are amazing. If there is anything I can do please don't hesitate to ask.

Star · 09-03-2007, 10:52 AM

the idiot's mother isn't much better. i want to see baily out of her care as well. she's as vindictive and evil as he is. i've been talking with the idiot's son's (3 years old) maternal grandmother. she's got the boy with her and has raised him basically from the get go. what the idiot and his mother is putting her through is pure evil. she also is going for full custody. her court date is a couple weeks ahead of mine. he's threatened the woman in every way a person can be threatened. and his mother codones everything he says and does. they're just evil people that shouldn't be allowed to raise any child.

i just can't wait until this is all over with. i'm tired, i'm really tired of all of this in my life.

TKDLady · 09-03-2007, 10:59 AM

I wish I knew how to help you. I guess for now it will just have to be in the form of listening and being here when you need to lean on someone. I really hope you are able to get your grandchildren where you want them. I am sorry there are such evil people in the world and that they have been blessed with a sweet baby. I truly hope you are able to get Baily away from her. I will be praying hard for you. Don't forget to take care of yourself through all this. I know it probably isn't easy. I am here, we are all here, if you need anything.

darkangelism · 09-03-2007, 11:48 AM

star, you still amaze me as to how you survive through all of this.

Luba · 09-03-2007, 12:03 PM

After reading your posts, Star, it seems to me Krystal is in a desperate state to try making up a huge story like that. I will continue to pray for you all as I've done...

PepsiChic · 09-03-2007, 04:06 PM

i cant believe she would do that to you! im just speechless, utterly utterly speechless! and angry, really angry, and im sorry because i dont know you well enough and dont know your daughter at all.

But some people pray and wish to have parents like you, and she can just throw that on the ground, spit and trample on it?! she needs a good slap and a wake up call.

IR_Efrem · 09-04-2007, 05:59 PM

all I can say is that is a very contemptable thing to do to anyone. this is also the sort of thing that would drive me away from a person permanently regardless of who they are. I can only imagine the exact feelings you are roller coastering through right now. To not have a child of mine in my life seems like such an absurd thought. Please try to take of yourself and I wish you all the best in trying to do what is right in your eyes. You will be in my thoughts for sure.

Duke · 09-05-2007, 01:41 AM

OMG, I'm so sorry Star,

...no comment (I'd just go off on another rant).

Vautrin · 09-05-2007, 03:04 PM

OMG, I am so sorry to hear this Star

Star · 09-05-2007, 09:27 PM

she called me the day before my birthday to wish me a happy birthday. i replied with i"i don't want to talk to you krystal, bye" and hung up. then she called again on my birthday and left a message saying "I know you're mad at me but i wanted to wish you a happy birthday". i knew it was her calling and i didn't pick it up. needless to say i cried a lot on my birthday. doing this is sooooo hard for me because she is still my baby girl, my firstborn child.

i'm not going to give her an opportunity to hurt me again. she's going to know how it feels to have an estranged mother, as hard as that is for me to do to my own child, it's something that needs to be done. for how long, i don't know. as it stands now, i'm afraid it'll be years and years.

Duke · 09-05-2007, 09:31 PM

You have us Star so please don't be afraid to use us, that's what we're here for.

Sadly, I think you're doing the right thing. It sounds like you've done everything you can for your daughter and she continues to worsen with each passing day/child.

I hate like h3ll saying this but what else is there to say really?

TKDLady · 09-05-2007, 10:55 PM

Keep your determination Star. It is the only way she will learn, if that is possible. We are here for you and you have my personal e-mail if you need to chat that way. I am praying for you.