Hi. I'm just venting a little 'cause I'm hurting

Just__A__Thought · 08-19-2006, 09:22 PM

Hi.

I'm just took a sleeping pill and am going to bed, but I don't want my mind to be idle too long right now.

My mother passed away on Friday, August 11, 2006. I took care of her at home for years and she was ready to go, but I miss her terribly. We were very close. I picked up her ashes and death certificates yesterday. It hasn't fully hit me yet, but I think it's coming.

We shared everything. I want to talkwith her so bad. She didn't know me at the end, but knew I was there - unfortunaly, I had gone home for the night because she was sleeping. There was no phone call to say she was going - no physical signs like shallow breathing or reduced BP or any of the things we thought would happen. She just stopped. She was alone - the nursing staff had checked on her about an hour earlier and she was sleeping - when they checked on her again she was gone. I got there about 20 minutes after they said she died and her body was already cool and she looked so pale. I took a week off of work and went back today. I just can't believe she's gone - but I'm happy for her because she was suffering so much. We had a birthday party for her exactly one month earlier. She turned 80 on July 11th.

I'm a grown woman, but now both my parents are gone and I feel so alone and like a child.

Cherish your parents - even when you argue with them or disagree with them.

darkangelism · 08-19-2006, 11:26 PM

im sorry to hear that.

Crazy_Captain_Chris · 08-20-2006, 02:07 AM

Im so sorry to hear what you have said. All I can tell you is that, my mother died in 1999 and it is something that you never quite get use to.
I hadnt seen her in a couple years, as she lived so far away, but we did speak often on the phone.
After she died I felt that life will go on regardless, so that is what I did, as I knew that was what she wanted, not would of wanted, but that is something we had spoken about before, its something she wanted.
I coped and went on, sad yes. I think of her occasionally, and hope she is well where ever she is.
My only one regret is that she never got to meet my 2 beautiful daughters, she wouldve been proud. What I do though when I hit the blues about her not being here, is just imagine all the happy times we had, and there were plenty enough of those to get me smiling.
Hope this was a little bit of help, take care and keep smiling (smiling will help).

Merika · 08-21-2006, 12:32 AM

Oh Gosh, I'm just so sorry! I can't imagine a worse day in my life than the day when my mom will pass away. I wish I could say something to make you feel better....but I realize only time will heal the pain in your heart.

This is a lovely site: http://home.att.net/~velvet-hammer/grief.html
I hope it helps you.

TKDLady · 08-21-2006, 10:23 PM

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I know the feelings you are having and they will pass. The memories will always be with you. Cherish them. Take care.

Star · 08-22-2006, 08:34 AM

I'm so sorry about your loss.

{{{{{{big hugs}}}}}}}

captaincash · 08-26-2006, 03:19 PM

i'm sorry your mom died. that has to be a really sad thing.

Luba · 09-02-2006, 03:33 PM

I am so sorry to hear your dear Mom has passed away! Keeping her memory alive and envisioning and talking to her, even the dreams I have have helped me cope with my loss of my loving Mom! It took me a long time to even look at a picture of her and my Dad who are both gone; but now when I do, I'm able to smile and be grateful that they were my parents and remember....