So good to hear you guys say that.
I'm a bit relieved to see that I'm not the only one keeping it inside

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I so wish I could express it right away, it'd save so much time and dramma. Well, I'm obviously incapable, lol.
Weiser, I do have my outbursts every couple of time too. I'm not taking it out on other people, however. On those that caused me to be mad. I'[m like mad and not talking, mad, mad and mad and pourring it out. I'm not a screamer, I'm just mean.
Tkdlady, crying is not an unusual part of the ritual

. I am soooo mad at myself when I feel tears coming up, I absolutely hate it! It's like the typical irrational female that I loathe. But then impersonating it and knowing it is... well... not easy.
Also part of my stress routine: if I'm
really stressed I can't eat - as opposed to being bumbed and eating chocolate. Yes, Meanon, that gives me lots of heartburns. If I'm mildly stressed I clean - I mean really clean.
I'd also listen to music loudly and I invariably end up jogging for one hour minimum - taking my iPod with me. If I'm at work, I just sink it in and work till I'm exhausted.
The source of stress this time? Meanon, you're asking? Men, of course :roll:

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