I think I'm done

Weiser · 04-11-2006, 08:07 PM

So as you might of all guessed from my various posts about not sleeping for 48 hours, not going to bed until 4pm, yadda yadda, I started partying again. Not nearly as bad as I used to be, but still, it's bad enough. At first I thought it was going to be good fun, like the old times...but it's not. Either I'm just out of practice or I'm just getting older, but I just can't do it anymore like I used to. It's a good thing too I guess. I don't know, I'd rather have my sleep now, be able to talk normally and not feel sketched out. Last weekend (Saturday) I partied with Andrea, took some E and it was fun for a little bit, but then it just got sketchy. 5 Tylenol PMs couldn't even knock me out.

I don't know why I'm posting this, I guess it's just to talk to somebody, because I can't talk to any of my friends here about that stuff. It's a good thing that Andrea and I aren't together anymore I guess, because I won't be doing any of that crap anymore. I honestly think I'm done for good. It's just not worth it anymore. So, thanks for listening

TKDLady · 04-11-2006, 09:34 PM

I am proud of you Weiser. It takes strength to change your life and you are changing for the better. I wish I had half that strength to change some aspects of my life right now. Good luck.

darkangelism · 04-11-2006, 10:45 PM

from the title it almost sounded like you were leaving here.

But its good that you are done for good with that stuff.

Merika · 04-11-2006, 10:54 PM

Awww Sweetie....you are just going thru a really crappy time. It takes awhile....but eventually you'll come out of the whole funk understanding what was really important to you in the first place. You'll re-adjust some priorities and realize you are a better person because of it.

I'm sorry you are having to go thru it!

Paul · 04-12-2006, 12:27 AM

Be true to yourself, look after yourself man! Your highly thought of and obviously cared for if the posts on this forum are any indication. Just be sure that the end of the day, whatever you're doing makes you feel content inside and that you're accomplishing what you want out of each day. The rest will come!

Weiser · 04-12-2006, 03:03 PM

Well I have decided, with beach volleyball coming up at the end of may, that I should get my beach body back. So, now that I will have some free time, I'll be working out and tanning. I'm also going to invest in a console (ps2 or modded xbox) so I can stay in and not be horribly bored on the weekends, thereby saving me money by not spending over $100 at the bars a night. I'm also going to not bother with girls for a while. I'm just going to focus all that energy into working out and getting into shape. I'm also going to try and quit smoking at the end of the weekend.

darkangelism · 04-12-2006, 04:00 PM

that sounds like a good plan...and my life, i sit around play games and work out and thats about it.

Luba · 04-12-2006, 09:47 PM

Good luck in your "new" life, Weiser! You are a great person and it sounds like you need time to yourself, like an introspection is happening...which could be a very good thing.

twinkle · 04-13-2006, 06:58 AM

My sister is in the same mind field as you. She's so impulsive, LOL.

Anyway, she's working out 1h and a half each day, doing massages and stuff... Being a student was a great time of my lfe !

Merika · 04-13-2006, 09:22 AM

I remember when I had to give up hard liquor and diet pills....it was a sad time for me. But some years later...I never miss it or even think about it much. You DO grow up and see these things are a time and money waster.

You won't give up on women though....you'll just look with an improved 'WEISER' heart!

Weiser · 04-13-2006, 02:21 PM

I worked out yesterday for an hour, just my arms and chest and holy crap I am hurting today. It's going to be good. I feel the 6 pack coming back!

And as for giving up on women, I never said I was giving up on women, I said I'm not going to bother for a while. Well, not going to bother with a relationship. If I'm out and something happens, I'm not going to say no

It's just that if I get into another relationship I will stop working out and doing everything else I'm trying to start doing right now. It's just a way for me to focus.

BattleaxE · 04-13-2006, 06:49 PM

sounds like you have a plan. continue to focus on the things that are going to make you feel better about yourself and everything else will fall into place. keep up the good work weiser!!!!!