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I am and will remain the primary caregiver to erika either until krystal proves herself to children's aid or forever if she chooses not to. Erika isn't going anywhere; she stays here with us in a stable home and with people who love her to death.

I feel really sad that krystal won't be here for x-mas again but there isn't anything i can do about it. If she comes back before then, then she's more then welcomed BUT come after x-mas, if she continues pulling these stunts, she won't be allowed to live here anymore. I told her on the way out that i won't allow her to keep coming in and out of erika's life and that if i have to, i will get custody to make sure she has no rights to her. That doesn't mean that i will become "mommy" because i'm not. I'm gramma and always will be gramma to erika.

I am a little embarassed to go to our family get togethers now that krystal isn't here. the questions they'll ask and the "i told you so's". I really don't want to hear that because you know, with your own children, you can't help but give chance after chance. and she still is a child herself. But, Erika does come before krystal now so her well being is top priority. Erika will have a good x-mas even if mom isn't with her.