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My daughter, Krystal has left again. She left 2 days ago. She kept threatening to leave and I was trying to talk some sence into her (especially now that she's a mom) and that wasn't working so I called her bluff and helped her leave. I threw her things out the door and told her that if she leaves, never to come back again. Of course I didn't mean that, I was very angry at her selfishness.

She called me yesterday at around 3 pm. I told her to come home. She said she was going to but hasn't shown up at all as of yet. I told her that I didn't mean what I said about her never coming back home, that I was just angry and disapointed. I thought for sure she'd be back by now but no.

So now, here it is the eve of x-mas eve and she's still not home. The children's aid worker is coming here today at 4. If she isn't back by then, I'll have no choice but to let them know what's going on. This is not what i want to do! I can't believe that she's not here for erika! Now i'm wondering if erika's first christmas will be spend without her mom. What a selfish immature daughter i have.

Here i was looking forward to having x-mas with krystal here since she hasn't been around for the past 3 years and that doesn't look too promissing. Oh well, at least we have erika here.