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wolvesjr34 · 06-24-2008, 09:42 AM

Well here is something I started writing many moons ago. Doubt i'll finish it, but I wanted to share it here.

Fumbling Towards Ecstasy

Laura was in the process of completing her Spanish assignment when she heard her door open and Ashley walk in. She glanced at the clock on her computer desktop, it read One a.m. "You were out late."

Ashley had a huge grin on her face as she flopped down on the bed. "Yep, I sure was."

The American swivelled on chair so that she was facing her friend. "What's got you so excited?"

"Kasey!"

"Oh yeah? What she done for you now?"

"She's asked me to go back to Australia with her."

Laura was stunned. She had figured that Ashley had only been a passing interest of the musician's. "What did you say?"

"That I'd think about it."

"How long do you have?" she returned her gaze to the computer, saving the final touches of the Spanish assignment.

Ashley moved from the bed to a position standing behind Laura with a hand on either shoulder as she peered over at the computer screen. "Your paper done then?"

"Yeah." She shrugged away from the Australian's touch. "When do you have to go back with Kasey?"

"Why? Jealous are you?" she laughed.

"Not on your life! I just want to know when I get my dorm back to myself." She stood up and walked away from Ashley, forcing back the emotion that screamed to be let out. Three years of denial combined with a disbelief that anything good could actually eventuate from exploring her feelings had led her to the point she was at. Ashley was happy. She was miserable, having missed what she felt was her opportunity to tell her that she loved her.

"In two days."

Laura spun around. "Two days? Have you made a decision?"

"Does it make a difference to you?"

Was that an opening? She decided against that thought. "Just concerned for you...that's all."

Ashley sighed. She realised Laura would never put herself on the line, not now. "I think I'm gonna go with her. Feeling home sick."

Laura nodded slowly. She wanted to reach out and touch her, to give her all that she'd once dreamed of, to feel for herself what it was like to really touch the woman she had been so afraid to love. She wished she could return to the day Ashley had sent her the instant message professing her love. A love Laura had always known existed and had cajoled into the open only to rebuff the openness and leave her friend broken hearted. She wished that she had chosen the other path. "I'll miss having you around." It was as close as she was going to be able to get to saying 'I'll miss you'.

Ashley smiled. "I'll miss you too."

"Are you kidding? You'll be on tour with Kasey." She walked over to her drawer and pulled out a bottle of Southern Comfort Whiskey. She slumped down on to the end of the bed and opened the bottle. "Here's to Australian country music stars!" The sarcasm was ripe in her voice.

It was blatantly obvious to Ashley that Laura didn't want her to go, but that she was allowing her pride and stubbornness to prevent her from asking her not to. She also didn't much like the thought that Laura was going to drink herself into a stupor in an attempt to suppress her feelings. "So you're going to play that game then?"

"I'm not playing any games Ash. I'm simply keeping my word."

Ashley knew what Laura was referring to and she also knew that the desire to remain true to a word given over three years prior had more to do with a deep rooted fear of rejection, than some deep loyalty or concern for the friendship.

CRZYAUZZY12: We really need to talk.
DIVALICIOUS13: Yeah we do.
CRZYAUZZY12: I can't go on this way. It's killing me.
DIVALICIOUS13: I'm sorry.
CRZYAUZZY12: Don't be. I understand that you and I are in different places right now and I accept it. Just promise me one thing...
DIVALICIOUS13: What's that?
CRZYAUZZY12: Don't come to me in six months from now with a change of heart. Because I don't think I could handle it. It would kill me.
DIVALICIOUS13: I know. If anything ever transpired that way and you were happy or involved with someone, I would keep it to myself. You have my word on that.
CRZYAUZZY12: Okay. I think I'm goin' to go now, I need some time alone.
DIVALICIOUS13: Are you okay?
CRZYAUZZY12: Yeah. TTYL.
DIVALICIOUS13: Laters.

06-24-2008, 09:42 AM	#1 (permalink)
wolvesjr34 Established Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Posts: 355	(Fiction) Fumbling Towards Ecstasy Well here is something I started writing many moons ago. Doubt i'll finish it, but I wanted to share it here. Fumbling Towards Ecstasy Laura was in the process of completing her Spanish assignment when she heard her door open and Ashley walk in. She glanced at the clock on her computer desktop, it read One a.m. "You were out late." Ashley had a huge grin on her face as she flopped down on the bed. "Yep, I sure was." The American swivelled on chair so that she was facing her friend. "What's got you so excited?" "Kasey!" "Oh yeah? What she done for you now?" "She's asked me to go back to Australia with her." Laura was stunned. She had figured that Ashley had only been a passing interest of the musician's. "What did you say?" "That I'd think about it." "How long do you have?" she returned her gaze to the computer, saving the final touches of the Spanish assignment. Ashley moved from the bed to a position standing behind Laura with a hand on either shoulder as she peered over at the computer screen. "Your paper done then?" "Yeah." She shrugged away from the Australian's touch. "When do you have to go back with Kasey?" "Why? Jealous are you?" she laughed. "Not on your life! I just want to know when I get my dorm back to myself." She stood up and walked away from Ashley, forcing back the emotion that screamed to be let out. Three years of denial combined with a disbelief that anything good could actually eventuate from exploring her feelings had led her to the point she was at. Ashley was happy. She was miserable, having missed what she felt was her opportunity to tell her that she loved her. "In two days." Laura spun around. "Two days? Have you made a decision?" "Does it make a difference to you?" Was that an opening? She decided against that thought. "Just concerned for you...that's all." Ashley sighed. She realised Laura would never put herself on the line, not now. "I think I'm gonna go with her. Feeling home sick." Laura nodded slowly. She wanted to reach out and touch her, to give her all that she'd once dreamed of, to feel for herself what it was like to really touch the woman she had been so afraid to love. She wished she could return to the day Ashley had sent her the instant message professing her love. A love Laura had always known existed and had cajoled into the open only to rebuff the openness and leave her friend broken hearted. She wished that she had chosen the other path. "I'll miss having you around." It was as close as she was going to be able to get to saying 'I'll miss you'. Ashley smiled. "I'll miss you too." "Are you kidding? You'll be on tour with Kasey." She walked over to her drawer and pulled out a bottle of Southern Comfort Whiskey. She slumped down on to the end of the bed and opened the bottle. "Here's to Australian country music stars!" The sarcasm was ripe in her voice. It was blatantly obvious to Ashley that Laura didn't want her to go, but that she was allowing her pride and stubbornness to prevent her from asking her not to. She also didn't much like the thought that Laura was going to drink herself into a stupor in an attempt to suppress her feelings. "So you're going to play that game then?" "I'm not playing any games Ash. I'm simply keeping my word." Ashley knew what Laura was referring to and she also knew that the desire to remain true to a word given over three years prior had more to do with a deep rooted fear of rejection, than some deep loyalty or concern for the friendship. CRZYAUZZY12: We really need to talk. DIVALICIOUS13: Yeah we do. CRZYAUZZY12: I can't go on this way. It's killing me. DIVALICIOUS13: I'm sorry. CRZYAUZZY12: Don't be. I understand that you and I are in different places right now and I accept it. Just promise me one thing... DIVALICIOUS13: What's that? CRZYAUZZY12: Don't come to me in six months from now with a change of heart. Because I don't think I could handle it. It would kill me. DIVALICIOUS13: I know. If anything ever transpired that way and you were happy or involved with someone, I would keep it to myself. You have my word on that. CRZYAUZZY12: Okay. I think I'm goin' to go now, I need some time alone. DIVALICIOUS13: Are you okay? CRZYAUZZY12: Yeah. TTYL. DIVALICIOUS13: Laters.