I slept for a couple of hours last night. I had a bout of PTSD.
I of all things I never put myself in the Lord's hands. After I did I slept until 8 when my brother called. I will sleep well tonight.
Im processed and actually im in pretty good shape. Im still lonely but I heard and awesome sermon about my situation. I will have intamacy with God. We will spend time together. It's great how the lord works!
In essence Im the problem. Im my worst enemy and the enemy within. I did not take care of my health. I dont blame her for wanting to put up with someone that may not live much longer. Im a diabetic and wasnt taking my medicine or working to keep my blood sugar under control. I wasnt excercisng or watching what I was eating. May 4th is my physical body's new beginning. I called my brother that is a teacher and has a degree in health matters. He is working with me to get situated. I just got in from church im eating some grilled chicken breast and oddly enough oatmeal. after that im going to get a haircut and going for an hour long walk. Im going to get an mp3 player and put an audio bible on it. I may not blog much from here until new developments occour. My faith tells me that I have a mandate and the challenge of a lifetime.