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Originally Posted by wolvesjr34
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Originally Posted by PepsiChic
i know im lucky. extremely lucky 
and AJ we ALL love you!  |
How did I know that was coming?
I feel so horrid that that just doens't make me feel better anymore. |
AJ, I SO want to find a way to help you feel better...because I feel we deserve to be the happiest we can be in this life. I don't want to say anything that would hurt you in any way when you are feeling badly.
I will say, however, what makes you happy within yourself, what do you like to do, what is your passion? Is there any way you can start within yourself to make your days special, or at least start with moments that when you go to bed at night you can say to yourself, "hey, AJ, I really enjoyed doing that! Wow!" Anything, no matter how small, is a positive start. Even rewarding yourself for giving a happy moment, hour, or day to yourself! Trust me, once that happens, you will be looking for that more and more!
Some scenarios to try: If you like to read, take a book and sit in your favorite cafe with your best coffee or tea, and just read, oblivious to other people if you are somewhat shy. If not, just have a coffee and look at the passers-by through the window, a very enjoyable pastime. Take a few hours in a Library just looking at books or magazines. Take yourself on a picnic in your favorite park under a tree with the sun streaming down, birds singing, either reading or laying down looking at the clouds streaming by! Talk to people when grocery shopping or waiting in lineups, one of my favorite places to laugh, joke and have fun with people. Listen to your favorite music and dance around the room with a teddy bear (as I said before, I'm a grandmother and I LOVE to do this)! Look at yourself in the mirror, and see your beauty and don't look for flaws; after all, YOU are one of a kind and therefore, very, very special! Smiling at yourself in the mirror first thing, even though your hair is awry and hanging in your face; just that one little thing will change the course of your day if you let it! Buy yourself some flowers, your favorite ones, and sign a card to yourself, "To AJ, with LOVE from AJ"...that is SO fun!