23rd November 2008 - planned date
Myself and Fireblade have hired a lawyer to get me a visa to immigrate to the US. Hopefully should have the visa by October and the wedding date is set for November.
We're getting tremendous support from Fireblades family, We've had to get all kinds of "evidence" together to show we've met within the last 2 years, and that we plan to marry and live together.
Was all excited earlier talking to his mum, his mum is going to help me organize it all, and we're gonna start looking at venues soon, and go dress shopping while im over there for 3 weeks in july.
its a huge step forward development wise and im looking forward to getting back there for 3 whole weeks to enjoy some time together during the summer.
Im pretty overwhelmed by the support his family are showing, help with the lawyer, have written letters and helped give evidence of meeting me and are giving us a place to live and money towards the wedding. and they are generally really happy for us.
My parents however, dont even know we're getting married. because their lack of support is devastating. and as much as i love them. I want to live my life with Fireblade and so im going to do what i think is the right thing to do for my happiness and future.
I just hope they wont hate me for it for the rest of my life
i feel really guilty for not telling them, the reason i havent is because they will chuck me out "their" house and i have no-where else to go currently. So i will have to tell them when i leave. I hate keeping it from them, but if i dont have a place to live before i move then im in trouble and financially wont be able to do it.
What do you all think? should i tell them and hope they dont kick me out? leave it till last minute? am i a bad person for doing this when they dont want me to? i certainly feel a large level of guilt and sadness from the lack of support they give me.