[laki33]

I don't know where to begin. I have been married of 10 years and 3 kids. I will try to be short and sweet. I am dealing with emotional cheating, separation and career change all at the same time. I don't have a problem with latter two but I can't seem to deal with Emotional cheating. My wife came back from a business trip and I felt a certain disconnect. I never do this, but I checked her phone and saw she met a new friend that is also married. They were texting, spending excessive time on the phone all in 10 day's time. When if told her how I felt she decided to bring a mountain of other issues we were having insisting they are just "friends" and that we needed time apart. I agreed to move out end leave her and kids at home. Now I am taking a job out of state and do not see the light at the end of this tunnel. I am so hurt by all this that I am seriously thinking about divorce. I still love her, but I don’t think I will ever get over this. I love my kids and will always be there for them, but we have grown so far apart already that this separation will only make things worse. Maybe selfish, but I don’t think I could bear the thought of her being with another man let alone putting my kids in that kind of position. We have been separated now for a month and looks like maybe even a year or more to go. She hasn’t been happy with me for a long time which explains her attitude and new friend. I do take responsibility I just feel betrayed and lied to. I don't want to lose her and in some ways i already have, but I don’t see the point in agonizing any more like this.