First off, let me welcome you to Lifesupporters. You won't find a more friendly and caring bunch of people. I am sorry your wife and you are having these problems. I don't have much experience in this area other than when I was a shoulder for my girlfriend when her husband of 19 years left her. If walking into your apartment tears you up maybe you could spend a couple weeks with one of these friends, kind of figure out what to do. It might even be the best thing to move, change the scenery, get rid of all that reminds you of her or at least put it in an attic or storage unit until you can deal with it. You might want to consider seeing a counselor just until you feel more able to cope on your own. I wish I could tell you that I have been there but I can't. There are folks on here that can and I am sure they will help you with what they did and how they coped. I do know that things will get better. It may not seem like it now but time really does heal all. Good luck and keep us posted. You have definitely come to the right spot. We are a very friendly and helpful online family. I am sending you a virtual hug for now. Hang in there.
