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Duke · 03-16-2008, 10:41 PM

Backstory/About Me:

Some of you may know the following, some of you may not; either way it's at the core of who I am as a person so I felt compelled to add it here. I will state that this is a very important part of the bigger picture for me because if Lifesupporters.com fails me I'm not naive enough to think it doesn't fail others.

I suffered quite heavily through depression in my 20's and it led me on a journey that would eventually make me ponder the question, "who am I?" At the time I was surprised to be such a burden not only on those around me but a burden to myself. I felt at the time that I was pretty much a happy person or so I thought until I actually sat down and started analyzing my life. I've recently come to terms with the fact that depression wasn't just limited to my 20’s; depression has shaped much my life. I'm finally getting some insight into the stages I've been through throughout my life and for the first time in my close to 40 years things are starting to gel and make sense.

I've managed to hide this fact from virtually everyone via a wardrobe of masks I've created but the real issue is as good as these masks are, there not fooling me one bit anymore. As odd as it may sound, it's great finally coming to terms with something like this because it really helps me understand who I was, who I am and may even give me some insight into who I'm becoming.

I don't really think it’s necessary to dictate my life back to anyone here because its really a moot point that does not help drive this story forward. The only assurances I can give anyone here that I'm on the up and up is that I've been diagnosed as someone who suffers from depression in the past but chose to ignore it as I didn't think it a fitting diagnosis.

The benefit of hindsight and some probing inner questions has finally added some validity to that doctor’s assessment.

Now I just want to state this is an issue that I'm confronting and learning from and is not the focal point of this topic. I'm very thankful that you've taken the time to read this but its only purpose is back-story, not the plot.

...of course the above is a good segue into the what follows.

03-16-2008, 10:41 PM	#3 (permalink)
Duke Founder Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: The back of my mind. Posts: 20,540	Re: Falling short of my goal. Backstory/About Me: Some of you may know the following, some of you may not; either way it's at the core of who I am as a person so I felt compelled to add it here. I will state that this is a very important part of the bigger picture for me because if Lifesupporters.com fails me I'm not naive enough to think it doesn't fail others. I suffered quite heavily through depression in my 20's and it led me on a journey that would eventually make me ponder the question, "who am I?" At the time I was surprised to be such a burden not only on those around me but a burden to myself. I felt at the time that I was pretty much a happy person or so I thought until I actually sat down and started analyzing my life. I've recently come to terms with the fact that depression wasn't just limited to my 20’s; depression has shaped much my life. I'm finally getting some insight into the stages I've been through throughout my life and for the first time in my close to 40 years things are starting to gel and make sense. I've managed to hide this fact from virtually everyone via a wardrobe of masks I've created but the real issue is as good as these masks are, there not fooling me one bit anymore. As odd as it may sound, it's great finally coming to terms with something like this because it really helps me understand who I was, who I am and may even give me some insight into who I'm becoming. I don't really think it’s necessary to dictate my life back to anyone here because its really a moot point that does not help drive this story forward. The only assurances I can give anyone here that I'm on the up and up is that I've been diagnosed as someone who suffers from depression in the past but chose to ignore it as I didn't think it a fitting diagnosis. The benefit of hindsight and some probing inner questions has finally added some validity to that doctor’s assessment. Now I just want to state this is an issue that I'm confronting and learning from and is not the focal point of this topic. I'm very thankful that you've taken the time to read this but its only purpose is back-story, not the plot. ...of course the above is a good segue into the what follows. __________________ Help Support Us: Help us help you. My Daughter Rules!