[Duke]

Preamble:

I'm not really sure where to post this but I do need to share these thoughts because quite honestly, my mind has been racing for months now and I'm trying to come to terms with why. It's funny but now that I've started typing even these few words my heart is nearly in my throat and I'm unsure of whether or not that's actually a good thing.

In the interests of length I'm really only going to share what I believe links my current frame of mind with Lifesupporters.com. Believe me that you don't want it all because as difficult as it may be to believe, there is more to the story but it's not something I'm ready to share at this juncture so my apologies. Rest assured my health is fine, I'm not being sued nor am I bankrupt and I have not endured any great family tragedy, all I'm doing is trying to come to terms with certain large aspects of my life and maybe gain some answers through sharing.

Lastly, I'm really not looking for a pat on the back or anything from anyone here; I do not need smoke blown up my @ss so please don't do me the disservice of answering in this manner. What I really need is honest and insightful response to what follows and it would be great if you could detach yourself as my friends, family, etc., think of me as a patient.

I'd be remiss if I didn't reiterate that nobody here is responsible for how I feel so please, please, please, DO NOT take anything mentioned here at a personal level because this is not targeted at anyone or any one action.

The only real topic here or at least, the only topic I wish to discuss here is Lifesupporters.com and what the hell to do with it because as far as this writing is concerned, it is the eye of my storm and one of many hearts that pumps blood directly into my angst.