[MentallyStrong87]

Well thanks for all of the support from everyone. I just feel like I can never move out only because of the circumstances, if I leave do they get better or worse? I don't know, and I can't count on it to be better here either, I worry about my younger sister, not just myself, and I can't leave her behind to deal with this, I'm much stronger than the rest of my family, and can deal with it to an extent, but much more could be the last string. Ya know?

But I understand I need to do what's best for me you can't always help everyone around you, sometimes you have to help yourself before everyone else. And I'm the type of person who puts everything else before myself. But again, thanks for the help, public transportation is a great idea, but again, it will take some time to find a place to live, and I don't want to be in a shelter in this area, they are infested with drugs and such, which is not much better than the scene I am in now.

A friend of mine and I were talking about getting an apartment, but can I trust him to pay the rent always? It's questions like this that worry me. I can't depend on anyone else, and it leaves me alone and worried. Maybe I'm just over-worried, and worry about too many things that I have no control over. But that's just the nature of my personality. I feel like i have to help people, and worry about people I can't help.

Like for instance; a friend of mine has this girlfriend who is attractive, and has a great personality. And we get along great but he is very controlling and has basically drawn her away from her family and friends. So she basically is stuck with him, for fear of no where to go. We get along great and sometimes I wonder if she had the chance, would she take it? But I don't want to be in the middle of it, so I just try to talk to her and understand her situation and just be there for her. She deserves so much better, and there is nothing I can do. At least not at this moment in time. Sometimes it feels like only my dog understands me. Lol.

But to reiterate the earlier, thank you for all of the support, sometimes it helps just to know people do care and listen, when those immediately around you do not.