Re: Just saying hello.
Duke, you're already making me feel welcome, It is not necessary that I stay at my job and in a couple of weeks I plan on putting in a two week, just long enough for my body to detox and be able to pass a drug test, I would lease a car, but unfortunately I have bad credit. but In the area i live jobs are hard to come by, As for family to move in with no, friends yes, but then I'll end up without a vehicle and without a way to job interviews and such, Even though my parents aren't helping it's hard for them to help they're always short on money, and the alcohol controls their lives, I know if there was no addiction my life would not be how it is now. My father has spent thousands of my earned money on gambling and booze, which is another reason I don't have a vehicle, It seems like he always purposely messes up a good thing. And my mother's been dealing with that for years, which is probably what drove her to drink as much as she does, I know she cares, but there is nothing she can really do. Also the area i live in is nice high class people, but within a mile its all slums, and ghettos. The friend I still have are still all dependent on drugs, and I fear if I live with one of them I'll end up falling back into the bad habits I used to do. I want to go to college, which I will end up there by the fall of 08, I am so dedicated to going to college, that there isn't a doubt in my mind that I will be there someday, It's just hard to get financial aid, and since i have bad credit cant get many loans. The area i live in has no jobs, everyone knows everyone, so you cant escape anything, Which is why I want to move away and start a new life out of this area. I understand that everyone here is willing to help everyone, I'm just a very confused and lost person right at the moment.
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