[MentallyStrong87]

Well, the name's Chris. I've been having a rough few years, and tonight I ended up researching some info and looking for forums to help me since no one ever seems to listen. Maybe I can find some help and some good friends on here. As least I hope I can.

Anyways, here's a little about me. My parents are still together, they always argue and always drink. It never stops. I used to just drown myself in drugs, not so much alcohol, but the drugs definately took control of my life. When I say drugs I don't mean just marijuana. I won't get too into what I've done though.

So recently I've decided that's not what I want for myself and I can't rely on everything to just end up working out, the whole whatever happens is whats supposed to happen phrase, means nothing to me now. I have quit all drugs and i've been sober for about 10 days now. I've been to the doctor's and er's because I have very high anxiety but have no health insurance so I haven't gone until recently. Now I'm on prescriptions for xanax and zoloft. They seem to be helping but the environment I am in does not help. The yelling, arguing, and everything else makes me feel even worse than I should. I want to move out away from these people that just keep bringing me down. It's been like this for years, and it's unbearable now.

I need to move out, but have nowhere to go, no one to move in with, I have a job but no car to get there if I move. I'm basically stuck here because I depend on "them" for rides to work. If i had a way back and forth to work without their help. I would be gone, and never seen again. It's so bad I could care less if I see any of my family again. I don't want to hurt myself or anyone else, But if I stay here it's just going to deteriorate my life and soul.

And maybe I just need some good advice or some counseling. But then again all I hear is it's all in my head, there isn't a problem at home. The anxiety isn't real, the depression isn't real. I really just wanted to vent and if anyone cares, or needs some help and wants someone to just talk to I'm here for anyone who needs me, I just hope that everyone here feels the same way, and everyone can at least attempt to help everyone. I

believe in Karma with everything in my body and soul, and believe that what you put into this world is what you will receive out of it. If you do good, then good will come to you, if you do bad...I think you understand. So please don't think It's impossible to care about someone you don't even know or have never met. I am here for anyone who needs help or advice, regardless or whether anyone plans on being there for me. If I can help just one person then I will at least be able to go on knowing that my life is not a waste. For those of you who spent the time reading this, I hope I didn't waste your time, and I hope that everything ends up well for those of you who are looking for answers and hope.

Sincerely,
Chris.