I'm so sorry to hear you are having such a bad time GG
You are being way too hard on yourself. You know you were reacting to things in an emotional, rather than a rational way. That happens to all of us when we are upset. You have insight, you knew it was happening and it was wise for you to take a break. I know it's scary when you feel so out of control, but your head is firmly in charge GG. Please don't feel guilty about this, we all want what's best for you and you will always have our support, whether you are here or not. Take care of yourself and fb too x