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she finally woke up at 1:30 this afternoon and fed, changed then p layed with the baby. She's good with the baby during the day; it's the night time that we have problems with. She does love her to death but I don't think she knows how to deal with being a mother. perhaps the reality of being a mother hasn't kicked in yet? I don't know.

I gave her a good slap in the face last week because she was yelling at the baby in the middle of the night and I took the baby and she slept with me for the rest of the night.

We have a public health and a cas nurse coming in every week plus she's got everyone in the family (both sides) and friends that are telling her that life is different for her now. I think she chooses this behaviour. She's selfish and very immature. I wasn't a walk in the park at that age either but I was way more mature then she is. I wish the counselling and all the parenting/anger management classes would start now! She needed it immediately and it's been over a month now with nothing. The system sux!!

The only way she has erika in her life is because of her dad and i. If she decides to live on her own (she's seriously thinking about that now), then children's aid won't be involved with us and the baby. they will only be involved with visitations supervised by children's aid and the baby. I've told her that living away from her child won't be any good for the bonding and she doesn't get it so; i have no choice but to let her make more mistakes and hope she learns from them. Erika will be safe and sound with me here and have a normal life without being yelled at by her mother. That only breaks my heart and infuriates me all at the same time.