Everyday i go to work and i dread it, really really dread it, i hate my boss, i hate his assistant too. I go in and the atmosphere could be cut with a knife, the entire night team are struggling to get along with the manager, and they hate the assistant. so from the moment we all walk inside at 10pm and rush out again at 7am, we are so tense and stressed.
now i even get stressed and upset before i even get into the building walking to work i get slower and slower and im sure one day i'll just stop and turn back. tell them where to stick their job and leave. but its the only place possible to get a job in this town, and untill i have enough money to move and can maybe get a transfer im stuck in that store.
if you wonder what my job is btw, i work in a supermarket filling shelfs at night when the store is closed to the public, its not the most exciting job in the world but i get about $16 an hour.
as for what my manager and his assistant does thats so bad...nothing! thats the problem! they sit and watch us work, now the managers role is to do so much time in the office and a bit on the floor, but they never do anything on the floor, the staff end up picking up his work and doing more then we should, and we dont get a thanks or anything for it. then the manager tells us he expects us to do such and such in a certain amount of time and this and that in another set amount of time so we can go do what he was suppose to be doing, and then we get penalized for not finishing it.
The assistant is worse, he came into the role as a trainee manager with a born arrogance, being the assistant has made that grow into a full blow "im in charge and the rest of you mean sh1t" so hes happy to walk around barking orders at people and then threatening disciplinary action if we dont seem to be doing it his way, which changes every day and no matter what you can NEVER do anything right for this guy.
big example last night, i went outside on my lunch break, to sit and chill out the smokers go out too and they'd be there in about 10mins, once they got their coffees from the canteen, i dont drink coffee so i went straight outside. seconds later the assistant came out, yelling and telling me to go back inside because A. i shouldnt be outside at 3am by myself and B i dont smoke so i shouldnt be out there anyway.
now people sit out there by themselves alone all the time on break, but this guy HATES me and really really puts down everything i do, its always not good enough no matter how hard i try i could break my back for this guy and he'd still spit on me.theres a camera trained on the spot outside a guy watching it, lights blinding the place you could see someone coming a mile away, so being alone is fine. and does it matter if i smoke or not? i like to sit outside and relax, i do it to get away from him in the canteen! i was so upset by this point i yelled back told him to just leave me alone i was here doing my job before he started as assistant manager. NOW i might be facing an informal discussion and a disciplinary which could ruin it for me if i want to aim for a promotion.
*sigh* im not looking for answers with this post, im not after ways to solve it, ive given up well past that point, i guess i should of said all this sooner, its been going on for months, but ive just shut it all away because i keep thinking "maybe hes right maybe i can do better should do better" and i push myself till i end up ill, i take a few days off work to try and get myself together to go back, just because of this nightmare.
im so very sorry for this huge rant, im so very tempted to hit the backspace key and just delete it all, but im far to distress, upset, and depressed i dont know what to do anymore. i cant quit but i just dont think i can fight it.
ah sh1t, i dont even know why or what i want from posting this,
im sorry
