Hii Moleen, welcome to lifesupporters...well, I am really sorry for what happened to you
if your husband left you because of your illness, then what I can say is that your husband is a real jerk
!!!...sorry to say that but I think that he should eventually be at your side at this particular moment because you need him more...when you love someone, I think that you should not only be by his/her side in happy moments but also in unhappy ones...
Like Ken said, there are counsellors who can help you and your husband find a solution for your problem...but we are here whenever you need to talk
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You are in my thoughts and prayers..
Hugs...