[TKDLady]

I am sure no one here would even consider judging you and I, for one, have no right to do so. We all have things that are extra baggage. Things we carry around with us until such a time as we can put them to rest. Things happen and we can't always control them. It is how you handle them that is important. It sounds like you are handling things in your own way and eventually you will find that happy balance. Keep posting and we will keep encouraging. You sound like a lovely young lady and I hope you find the peace we all so richly deserve someday soon.