only 2 people in my life know about my past, but i think i can share some of my experiances here, mainly because Duke says your a great caring bunch of people and i trust Duke, and his judgement and i just need to talk
gonna do this is baby steps tho, taken me ages just to get this far. so the begining...
when i was 14 (im 20 next month) i was drugged and raped while on a school youth sailing trip. I cant say it terrified me then because i was very out of it from the drugs, but memories haunt me and those are scary enough.
Since then ive had a fear and strangely a love of boats, i love looking at them but i wont go on one. I never told anyone what happened. the first time i told anyone was about 9 months ago infact and uptil then ive never even considered telling anyone.
Mostly i think because my self worth went completely down the drain, and i didnt believe telling anyone would make any difference. Instead i let it eat away at me. And now im just trying to put the pieces i have back together.
Im sorry if this is really depressing
any advice/thoughts...anything, are welcome