Well, the last few days for me have been rather terrible. Many people who know me, know that I'm a "worry wart". I've been fine up to this point, and honestly... I think it's just sleep deprivation. Last week, I haven't got enough sleep, because I do dishwashing, and I've been meaning to switch jobs (meant to a long time ago). However, since I didn't I end up hating it and stay up late just to feel as far away from it I can.
Then the FUN begins...
Now this has happened in past years with me. I'm perfectly fine, not bothered by anything, then the late night thing happens, and I end up getting sleep deprived. THEN, I see something on the
internet (which is usually BS stuff obviously) about bad news. Specifically, in this case... these sites people make about man kind ending and just trying to make money off of it by writing books. (Like Y2K, god what a disaster that was
) Since I'm sleep deprived and I read this stuff, I begin to imagine that every bad thing in the world is caused by what ever this is that the site is talking about. I had a pretty rotten night at work tonight, wasn't feeling well. One of the managers talked to me outside to ask me what was wrong. As I told him, I was nearly going into tears... actually I was. Now, even though the job is crappy, these people do care about me. He assured me I just need to get some sleep and I'll be okay, everyone has times when they worry about stuff, and the internet is full of freaks so you don't want to go around believing everything you read. He also assured me that they are glad to talk to me and I can ask them for help anytime. This made my tear up more, knowing that they care about me.
But in the midst of all this worry about one thing, it made me start to think about my future: college, career, and family. So to sum this all up, sleep deprivation and this single worry basicly flung me into a worry frenzy about everything in my life. I've been talking to people and I feel better. I'm sure all this crap will pass as with anything else.
Anyone else have these times? Because even though most of these people are just freaked and make this stuff up, some of them have a way of doing it that almost makes you believe them.
Btw, duke or anyone else, is there any way that I could maybe talk to you over a messenger or voice chat about it? It really helps me get better to talk about things.