I received this beautiful message from Merika today so I could share it with all of you! It was so beautiful that I am still in tears just from her uplifting message! I e-mailed Merika when Ken first posted how much we missed her and here is her response:
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I wanted to wait until I had enough time to answer this email. Its okay if you want to copy/paste the whole thing.
Jackson is doing wonderfully. Instead of freezing the cancerous cells in his neck
..they burned them. It was kind of scary and left a bad taste in Jacksons mouth for a couple of day
..but as far as we know
.he is well and all bad cells have been removed. There is still a hole under his chin
but its small and will heal eventually. This was probably the most terrible fear of my life
.and Im so thankful to my personal Jesus that this is now over. I dont think there is anything a parent has to go thru that is ever as worse as worrying about the life or well being of their child
regardless of age. Even if you are 30 years of age
.you are someones baby
.and please always remember that. Just because our babies are grown
.doesnt even begin to mean that we dont worry and love them just the same. So, the next time you think your mom is a nuisance
..look at your own child
.and remember your heart never changes.
Chloe is 14 weeks pregnant. We havent found out yet if its a girl or boy but we will next month. The baby and the mommy are doing very well . I learned through all of this that life isnt about it going according to out plan or convenience
..life is about taking things out of plan and in total inconvenience
.and finding the joy and blessing. (I learned that from Star!!!) So, at the very moments I thought this was the end of the world, I thought of my dear friend and the great joy her granddaughter has brought her
.and I knew from all this mess
.there was a wonderful life growing to bring joy to this world
.if we chose to seek the joy
rather than that old inconvenience. Chloe is not giving up her opera ambitions
.she will just need a little additional help in getting there. Meanwhile, I will try to be a supportive Grandma (Nana) like Star
.and make love work.
I was telling SweetBilly the other day how I faced two of the greatest fears of my life all within a 3 month period. I feared the loss of a life of one of my children and that one of them might get pregnant which wouldnt work for me. I finally realized that we fear so much we totally have the strength to accept and live with. People are stronger than they think
God has given us such a wonderful resilient spirit. And through it all
.we do find laughter, joy, and a great reason to carry on. Worrying has never changed an end result. I think perhaps its a total waste of time. Just accept life as it comes
.and dont try to make it the way you think it would work best. There is a great emotional freedom which comes from letting things go
..
I am sorry I havent posted. It is NO REFLECTION of my great love for you all. You could live next door and I couldnt love and cherish you more. Luba, Star, Duke, and tkdlady
.who has talked me through more beers than I can count
..are the mainstay of my life forever. No friends face to face could replace the deep feelings I have for you. I want to also mention Meanon
.who is like the sister I never had. I truly love you guys
..Ive just been so burdened down with stuff until I felt I needed to take an online break. Other than email
..Im rarely online at all. But you guys are so good
.until Lifesupporters is only the icing on the cake of life of the best friends in the whole wide world. You have been so kind in your faithful emails
..even when I was too tired to respond.
You guys are the BEST. And again
..I love you all
truly.
And Luba
..maybe only Ken and I would know the great gift that you are to mankind. People like you are rare. You are cheerful, uplifting, and see the best in everyone all the time. It is a great gift
..and you are blessed with it. From the bottom of my heart
.I so thank you for loving me
.even when I wasnt there to love back.
AND NO
.if you copy and paste my email in
.you HAVE to include that last paragraph
..because Ill check to make sure you did.
Il l be back posting like a maniac soon
All my love - kisses and beer breath
.Merika
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