Thanks Merika, I even felt bad at church yesterday I prayed to have god help me love my baby but it isn't working. I guess there are underlying issues that are causing this.
I really feel like white trash, I am only 24 and now I have 2 kids by 2 diffrent fathers, I never wanted my life to end up this way. I wish I could take a magic pill to be happy but I really don't see it happening. Everybody who knows is excited and my reaction is not how they expect. I guess it makes me look like a peice of crap when people bring me flowers and congradulation cards and I just look puzzled and miserable. I wish I could hide for 9 months.
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