[Ayla]

Have you ever found something out about someone and just completely changed the way you look at them? No matter how hard you try you just can not see them without that bit of information in the back of your head? This just recently happened to me.

I've posted before about "the one person I'll never forget". His name is Shawn and he and I clicked on so many levels but it just didn't work out that he and I could be in a long term relationship. I will always care for him on some level. Now, Shawn was my step dad's nephew.We were both adults when my mom married his uncle. I know, makes for a odd family reunion.

So here is the reason for the post though... I found out last night that as a child he was molested repeatedly by his uncle. NOT MY STEP DAD, but my step dad's oldest brother. For years this happened to Shawn and his brother. I don't know any of the specifics. I don't know if anyone knew it was happening when it was going on. I just don't know.

When I heard this information I just felt so bad for Shawn. He never said a word about it to me. It explains why he was so emotionally screwed up though. I just wanted to call him and tell him I know and to let him know I am here for him, but I knew that would be such a bad idea. He would not want me to do that I don't think. I just don't know what to do with this information, how to process it. It is such a shock to me. I feel like I should do something or take some kind of action...