Ha, ha, ha -that's exactly what I fear most! That I'll do something relly stupid that will scare him off!
It's my second year in a foreign country and itwas just so hard for me last year, everything was so confusing, like I could never be in control. I think the even scarier thing is that I think I get used to it, to a system that's not mine in a language that's not my own...weird... I like alwaysvexpect to discover something I forgot, didn't understand or misplaced(I do that at times). And my bf was age of as the one helping me get better..Now I'm fine, I don't seem to be in need of help, I'm quite fine, actually doing great with school... so I automatically think that "something bad is gonna happen some other place"!
Like a law of equilibrium,or something... I'm not used. I'm not used to being treated with kindness, not being taken advantage of, being age of as safe...being happy,I guess.
I run and run and do things...I call it "make a career", sacrifice for the future, the truth is that I simply am scared to stop, beside the reasons I gave you. I won't stop anyday soon for the next 2 years... I don't want to end up alone either.
I guess I just need a week end by myself... to read, bathe and pamper... not think, just relax and enjoy. I don't actually see myself doing this,to tell you the truth
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What do you guys do when you're worked up and restless?