I've been thinking about this alot and come to a conclusion.
I will be taking care of Noah for the rest of his life, I have planned his funeral, watched him fight for his life, watch him survive a terible illness and I am EXTREAMLY overprotective of him.. I worry about him like crazy.
We have been thru hell togeather and the bond will never be broken because it was just us to alone.
Ally is fine, Healthy and I just don't worry about her, I trust the people who care for her when I am working, I know she is the Apple of her Daddy's eye, she is a good easy baby I DO love her Noah is just a very special boy and we have a special bond due to the circumstances.I guess
I do feel bad for her, because I never want her to see any favoritism but Noah gets really jellous of her so I tend to be with him more and let her Dad and her hang out.... I'm a horrible mother huh :?
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