I was REALLY worried I'd never REALLY "just love" my kid "just because" it was my kid I've always love grow from like and how do you like something that's sooooo needy and dependant and it FREAKED ME OUT
Now it's soooo weird to me b/c I just love him I worry SO much that I'll be undeserving of HIM instead of the other way around
It's very hard to explain and sometimes the guilt rolled up in those begining feelings really bothered me and made it even harder I think it would be rough for a lot of mothers to come to grips w/those feelings
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