I have been crying every day while my daughter's been in the hospital. I can't go through with the adoption.
I went to Zellers yesterday to buy Krystal and the baby a gift and I broke down in tears in the diaper section. I called my husband this afternoon and talked to him about how I was feeling. Turns out he's been having some second thoughts also. We both decided to bring the baby home with Krystal.
I feel such a huge weight lifted from my shoulders. I really couldn't see myself leaving the hospital with Krystal and leaving the baby behind. It's not in me to do this kind of thing.
We had an appointment with the adoption lady this afternoon at 3 and I told her that we changed our minds. We're keeping the baby. She was very happy for us as are my family members and everyone at the hospital. They all know that I was having a hard time with it and were all hoping I'd change my mind.
I was trying to convince myself that adoption was the right decision. It's not the right decision for me.
I will show Krystal how to be a good mommy and get her into parenting classes, councelling and school. We have a very close knit family on both sides so we have plenty of support.
Krystal is being induced tonight at around 7:30 pm. I will be with her the whole time until the baby is born and I get to hold him/her (we all think it's going to be a boy!
) and spend a little time.
I'll let you all know if I have a grandson or grand daughter. I'm going to be a grandma!!