[Ayla]

Lately I've been questioning the extistance of a higher power and the purpose of religion all together. I mean, I'm sure that the ancient Greeks and Romans were just as adamant about their religion as modern day bible beaters are. Are they then going to burn in hell because the didn't know about our God? They used their gods as excuses for things they couldn't explain, do we really do any different? My husband and I recently went thru a finacial hardship, does that mean that God caused that? So in turn, God wanted me to be frustrated and upset on a daily basis?

This is the first time I've voiced this to anyone, and I feel like a bit of a blasphemer because I'm going against everything that's been engrained into me since I was a small child. I can't control the way my brain thinks though. I've tried the "it's the devil putting it into my head" thing and I actually laugh at myself. I dunno....