I've thought of all that and then some throughout her whole pregnancy. I've been thinking about nothing but for the past 9 months. The system wouldn't allow her to keep the baby at all. i'm the only one who can. I know this is the right decision, especially for the baby. As brave as this is to do, it's not easy at all. My heart just wants to grab him up and take him home and never let go of him. My head tells me that's not the right thing to do.
My parents are also grieving this loss already. everyone is. everyone but krystal that is. she will in time i suppose; when she matures and realizes what she's done. One day at a time. that's all i can do for now.
I found out yesterday that the guy (that 23 year old) is not the father to this baby. it's a drug addicted crack head of 18 years old that is (nice people my daughter hangs with huh?!?). she says she was with this other guy for maybe 2 months. she doesn't even know his real name for god sakes! she only knows his nick name. She has no clue where he is or how to find him so the adoption will go ahead without his consent. Krystal has been tested several times for drugs and came out clean everytime. Hopefully the tests are right.
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