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I realized that God has a plan after krystal's father died. I didn't think much about god until then.


at first i was extremely angry at god and even wondered if there was a god at all. i thought, what kind of god takes a daddy away from 3 young kids (he has 2 kids from a prior marriage)? then as time went on, i realized that he did have a plan. this plan was for me and krystal. God had a better plan for me and krystal with gerry. I can honestly say that my life wouldn't have been as good if krystal's dad would've stayed alive. it would've been pure hell to say the least. If I left (and i did a couple times before his death and planned on doing it again right before he died), he would hound me down and make my life hell. I seen him do it with his x-wife not to mention that he told me he would if i ever left him. although he never laid a hand on me (but did beat his x-wife), he led a double life. one that i had no clue about whihc put krystal and i in extreme danger.

so, after a couple years after his death, i realized that God does let bad things happen for a reason. there's always something better waiting up ahead. sometimes the road to get there is hard to travel but it's always peace at the end of it.

God's plan for us was a better, safer and happier life.

I have however questioned what possibly could be the reason for god allowing krystal to do the things she's doing since the age of 13. i have come to realize that this lesson isn't for me. although i suffer myself through it. the lesson to be learned is for krystal. he's got a plan for her and we must all ride that long road with her until she reaches the end of it. i know the end will be a good end. because god always had a good end in his plans.