Twinkle, on a positive note; because of what you went through and reading your threads and what a great and loving person you are, no way would you have any worry about yourself treating your children other than in a loving way!
I grew up in a fighting atmosphere, I honestly don't remember a day when things ran smooth, there had to be, I just don't remember anything but the drinking and the swearing and the fighting.
But, as dysfunctional as I was as I grew up, I love my boys and there never is a phone call that we don't end by saying "I love you, son" and they say "I love you, Mom" I phoned back one day because I thought I forgot to end the call like that, just to say "I love you, son".
Whatever my failings were, I hope my Sons can never say they weren't extremely loved by me! I tell them all the time how grateful I am that God picked me to be their Mother, there is no greater gift than that for me!!
When you finally have your child in your arms, your world becomes unbelievable!!!
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