MY family
Some people don't understand why I love my family so much but I guess they just don't understand my reasoning sometimes....
People aren't perfect and this doesn't exclude my family, I heard once that now a days everyone lives in some type of "broken home" and for me it caused ALOT of stress over the years and my mom may not have been the smartest person, being very weak and turning to drugs or alcohol instead of God. and most people would say to me "how can you respect someone like that?" or "she obviously doesn't care if she keeps on doing it to you" but these things never made sense to me. i always had hope for her and i still do, i think she did an amazing job of raising 5 kids basically by herself while being abused by a crazy drunk, and this caused another argument, people would say "well she can just stop drinking and leave him" but it just was not that easy. five kids, no money, no car. life sucked and i think i blocked alot of it out for a reason..
well anyways i guess i just wanted to ask if anyone else has been stuck between loving someone unconditionally when in any other situation you would hate someone who did those things to you...
its really tough sometimes but in the end i'd choose my family over any one..
ps, the way my life was hasn't really had a permanent affect on me as i'm not depressed or anything, i think it's done me a bit of good anyways, i'm at least more understanding and less judgemental, because i've been through alot.
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