Well I have given in... we are house hunting so atleast for awhile my attention will be directed elsewhere. I am somewhat excited because I get to pick out the house
Then I can decorate it. I am going to look at a KeyWest type of house today. Greg is actually purchasing the house but I will be on the title so I guess in the future I get to keep the house or he will legally have to buy me out so I am thinking of it as an investment ( crooked huh??) Realestate is boombing here like crazy so I can't lose, either way I will come out ahead so I am going to try to stay focused on that.
It's is inevitable that this relationship will end one day, and knowing how I am already I am at the point where I WANT to have an affair, I know there is no excuse for it or no reason but I am lonley
Greg and I have been talking quite a bit, he know's it's comming and I think he has excepted it :? Alot of our problems come from his BiPolor disorder witch makes things very hard for me emotionaly, sexually ect. I don't think he means to be such a cold person but he is all the medication in the world won't help that. I feel like I"ve tried and tried over and over and it just isn't worth it.
I actually do like him as a friend, a person ect but I can't deal with his emotional baggage witch is going to make me stray because my needs are not being meet, but being with Greg is meeting the needs of my children so I guess that is what I will do