I surprised her with the option to go last night.. She said she didnt want to go due to money reasons. I didnt argue, I just said ok.. She said she was going to get her check that night and she needed to cash it before we went anywhere, so we would go in the morning. Morning came and it was raining.. Instead of going to the beach, she said she wanted to go grab a bite to eat. We went to a restraunt and then to the park to talk. She says she cares about me deeply.. She said she wants to do things on her own at times.. She couldnt tell me if she loved me.. Nothing was really said that hadnt been said already.. It really hurt too.. We got married in that same park and had the conversation about 100ft from the spot we took our vows. The happiest day of my life was there.. And there we were, me listening to her say she still wanted to go separate ways.. She said she had feelings she didnt understand. And I feel helpless in saving our relationship because I dont know what else to do. Its like it rest with her, but she doesnt want counciling to help her uncover her emotions she doesnt understand..
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