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Hey guys. Like most of you, I joined this community because I have problems in my life and have very few people to talk to about them. Recently, my wife asked for a separation. As I love my wife and did not expect this, it has devastated me. Our living conditions have been grating on both of our nerves and its not because we cant stand each other.. We ran into some money problems about 2 years ago and lost our house.. Since then, we have been bouncing around from friends and family trying to get stable again. This in itself is stressful, but I have done everything I can to keep our little family together. I have a long history of depression and have been fighting it like mad for the last few months. I want to do anything I can to save my marriage but when I try to talk things out with my wife she more or less doesnt want to discuss the situation. She says she doesnt like me 'drilling/interogating' her about whats going on. To my knowlege, I havent been doing any of those things. I just try to understand the whole problem by talking to her and trying to get her to open up to me. We are currently staying at my parent's house. I know living with the inlaws is hell.. Its hell for me to live with my parents again.. And since I am currently unemployed again, that just makes it worse.. I cant help financially and that just makes her more stressed out because it falls onto her sholders.. I never meant for it to get this bad and want to do anything I can to make things better. Im out every day busting my ass looking for a job and I have also applied for admission to college. But I feel like none of that will really make a difference. I feel like I have already lost her. I talked to a mutual friend of ours today and found out she talked to him about our situation. She feels like I am holding her down and keeping her from living life. I dont know how or why she feels this way, but thats what she said. When Im not working, im taking care of our 4yr old daughter. I have literally raised her from day one. So how have I held her back? I would love to do things with my wife but I can barely ever get her to open up to me..

Sorry.. Im rambling on.. I dont even know if I ever cleared any one subject cause I have so much going through my mind.. I dont know how to deal with this and Im clueless on how to approach her in repairing the damage. I feel defeated and alone... Im trying to keep my hopes up, but its very difficult in these times.. I dont want to fall back into depression.. I dont know if I could make it if I did..