Thanks guys, I totally see what you're saying Star and I agree with this. My mom has guilt for the way things went, I know she's sorry and wishes she'd been a good parent, she's said as much. It's just hard to talk to her but I think I'm going to call her tonight because she asked me to last week and I forgot and didn't really want to.
I feel like a bad child and I know that I'll probably experience something similar one day but I'll do my best to be a good parent and avoid the mistakes my parents made. You don't know what you've got 'til it's gone.
It reminds me of what I was saying to my gf a couple days ago, I told I knew how she was feeling, of course she said I didn't, I told her she'd hear that from her kids one day and the fact is we're not all that different. People think they're unique in what they experience but the fact is most people go through at least some level of similar circumstances and can relate in someway. I just want to avoid having my kids think I don't understand because more then they might realize, I certainly will understand.
Anyway I'm getting off-topic here but I think I need to do some healing and burying of the past with them.
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