Last year was a big year for me! One of the reasons: my husband became very ill and for a long, long time we didn't know what was wrong, even Cancer was suggested. It wasn't until he went to a new doctor that he was diagnosed, and Thank God, it wasn't Cancer or life threatening.
What I learned from that frightening year was how short life really is, one day everything is fine and the next, the rug is pulled out from under and your life takes on a new meaning.
Forgiveness was something I knew I had to do...for me, the two just came together...I don't want to die knowing that I held a grudge, I just want to die in total peace, and forgiveness is such a part of that!!
So...I made a few calls...very difficult ones...and the people on the other end were surprised...but they listened, especially when I didn't come off saying "I forgive you" but instead said, "Let's forgive each other"!
With my father-in-law it was much harder because he verbally abused my Sons, but I did go to see him a few times in the hospital before he died! Even though it was the last thing I wanted to do, I did it, and it gave me a little peace of mind, even if I didn't totally forgive him, at least I did the best I could...and I'm okay with that....
|