I didn't believe much as a child. When I was 16 I took some yoga classes I thought were cool. Meditation and relaxation were fine, but the people there were trying to sway people into all types of Sutras.
I almost got sucked in. My parents were on the watch and didn't like how I was changing.
After that, I met this boy - went out with him for like... a couple of weeks (I was a bit spoiled). He was a true Christian. I learnt a lot from him, from coming back to God to actually thinking about myself, my actions, you know, what teenagers do.
I'm an Orthodox and that is one strict religion. I don't trust the Orthodox church and most of the experiences I had with priests were enough to make me stay away.
YEt I do believe in God and somewhere in the back of my head (although a bit quitter this year) was this little voice questioning me, all my actions...
If I feel like praying I go into a church and pray. This does not happen when I'm necessarily very happy or very sad. IT's based on how I feel inside. I don't go to church on Sundays and I miss most of the important religious services. It's an impulse driving me there and when I do listen to it, I live the most incredible feeling that only a true believer can have when feeling s/he is a son of God.
To tell you my philosophy of life: some people call it karma, other call it God. What I believe is that when someone intentionally harms you, there's no point in fighting back or in being mean. The worst wounds are the ones we inflict upon ourselves. So I do not see my role in specifically making this easier or harderon someone. Life takes care of everything.
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