Okay. I'm having a really bad day in the "mom" department today. I let all of the anger and thoughts out of my head on my family today. I exploded!
Here's the thing. I'm tired of feeling unappreciated, disrespected, taken advantage of and constantly asking myself "why am i here?!?"
All I wanted to do was sit down and watch one of the movies that i got at the video store today. Gerry watched one of his first (I hate his action ass movies) so I went and did my thing until it was finished. Well, kill me for wanting to sit down for 1-1/2 hours to watch a movie!! I had Kassandra yelling at me because she wanted to watch her "incredables" movie that she wouldn't of been able to finish in the first place because she is going to a dance tonight, Gerry yelling at me to let her watch it or put his other movie in. well, i flipped my lid!
I told them all that they're selfish, disrespectful, unappreciated idiots and I'm going on strike! I said, what am I even here for? oh wait, I remember now, to wash your dirty stinking underwear, cook, clean up after all of you slobs, make your lunches, set your clocks, make sure the bills get paid and take the blame for everything that goes wrong in your lives! I said the only one that does appreciate me around here is erika! I get a big smile after I feed, chage, bathe and get her up in the morning unlike what i get from everyone else around here! All I ever hear from kassandra is "mom!!! where's this and where's that? can you get this for me? can you make that?" and from gerry, make me this, that and set my clock, call my doctor, wash my pants....
to top it all off, the guy i bought my van from is jerking me around. it's still not ready!! 7 weeks later!! I'm about to blow my top on him too!
I do this about once a year. it's like i have a breakdown or something. I've been couped up in here for way too lojng and now everything is getting to me.
I'm going on stike until my family can help out around here! question is, can I live in the filth? :? 8O
thanks for letting me vent.
