I totally see your point Duke, I know what she's like and unfortunately emotion sometimes clouds my better judgement. If this is then I've accepted that, there are plenty of good people out there that I'd rather spend my time with because they don't act like this. I do want to be her friend and have asked her as much but if that's not possible then I'm fine with it, I'm ready to move on now to bigger and better things... well, better anyway.
Also please understand that I do understand where she is at, I don't blame her although she is being narrow minded. She wrote me and told me that she'd rather be with me and all the uncertainties that come with a relationship then be where she is now, but also that it's to late. She's knows what she's done and it's her choice, she'll have to live with it, I would have been a sucker and gone to the end with her but it's just better this way. I can't hater her because she needs help and direction like everyone else her, she's a member and I hope eventually she comes to seek answers to the questions she has.