I've never felt so destroyed before, I haven't cried like this since I was 12 yrs old.
The worst part is I know I didn't do anything wrong, it'd be easier if I had. It's just so hurtful because she told me yesterday that what made me the best boyfriend is I always strived to do better, towards her, for her. I gave 110% and got the one thing I was scared of the most.
I mean I can sit back and logically pick this apart but it doesn't add up because there are to many emotions clouding it. I think the thing that really hurts me the most is that I know she won't find anyone for at least awhile that will treat her as good as I did, she's going to be used and she accepts that, that's REALLY hard because I do care how she does.
I just hope I can take some good lessons out of this for sure. It just makes me realize how hard but important it is to stay true to yourself and your beliefs, if you don't have self-respect then you have nothing. I lost a bit of that today.
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